Friday, March 25, 2011

How To Decorate My Own Belt Buckle

I got to the root of my problems.

I must confess that I have a pretty bad season ... let's say that I have put together everything. IT, what I have felt overwhelmed with my family, I can not say that I am, classes ... I thought it was just an accumulation of things but today I got to the root of my problems.

was at home with my brother and my mother. As days ago, with a face, edge and answering very listless. Have been serious and we're done talking. I could take all the shit that was inside, a shit of course I did not. Now I understand as do the psychologists ... just have to look inside yourself, accept the things and say them out loud to understand you.

The root of my problems I have two personalities is very clear. The first is that I am with my family. A silly girl, innocent, laughing about everything and do not worry about anything. The second is what I really am a mature woman with straight and the desire to conquer the world. Whenever I have that image, because I've always been. And when I started to change just did not. So I pretended to be what I am not for many years ... and that is that I have deep fear of being who I am and that I accept. On the other hand one of the factors of this second personality is my homosexuality. I know real people and not all that clear and greatly influenced. Comments, criticisms, things that hurt. My brother talking and talking told me the other day she told my aunt most feared because it is religious. At first I felt bad, but then I said, you have lifted a weight off because it does not have to tell me.

The truth is I'm new. And never before had I realized that I had to carry two persons so affected. As I have advised, I will try to show as I am slowly ... and so I will have to:)


And since I am, today I dreamed of her and her boyfriend. So fantastic together, so adorable. I'm glad, but sleep has been horrible. Having to see her in the arms of another ... With my own eyes, before me. As much as I said the other day that had passed, I can not help but feel uncomfortable knowing that I'm not that happy doing. But speaking selfishly ... because I really, I'm happy you've found someone who cares. I just hope I can do the same soon.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Libby Financial Accounting Solution 6e

Ready to be happy:)

I live the most bipolar of my life.

The other day I read that she had missed her boyfriend, but I did not speak for herself. So it did not affect me because I did not believe (or would not accept it). Finally, after about 3 weeks she has been connected. I did not want to talk, but I was dying. After so long ... I was not sure what to do. In the end I succumbed to the temptation, I needed to know the truth because the question was killing me.

was true. She had a boyfriend. As I said, I've had a hand to his mouth to make no noise, and I began to mourn. He died literally. This another. Other than the kiss, one that tells you I love you, other than the hug and tell you how wonderful it is ... But while I was talking about those tears were drying and were turning into smiles.

's funny. I've gone from crying to be laughing. I've had it rough, and yet I had a genius. Again, she and I, as before. But as ever. When we were just friends.

I think I'm prepared to say:

I'm not in love, but I love .




Wish me luck,

the same for you.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Are Bubble Skirts Still In 2010?

A bubble to go! Thanks.


're stupid. Are reserved. If you are unsure. are shy.



"Shyness is a sense of insecurity and shame in oneself you may feel before a social situation. "

For me, it is much more than that. A disease that haunts me I have use of reason ... always involved, fucking the best, the best people, and many things to say .

been a long time since I had to face its her, I even think he had defeated ... but deluded. That never.

Today has come to light in my first job interview, and me into panic. The post was crap (in the mcdonalds) so I'm not concerned about it. What I have been afraid that I've noticed that I have always been and I always will be. Do not if I were sitting in front of more interviews and leave them. If I have a partner someday. (Since I have left for this once) or people who become friends.

I have too many insecurities in myself to not let me be happy. That make people stay away from me, and can not think of any way I want.

I disappear from the world. Of the criticisms, fears, mistakes. I put them all in a bag and send to the moon. Climb on a soap bubble and fly beyond this city.


I feel lonely.
Without IT.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Where Can I Buy Diptyque Perfume

Women Bathers paintings


Salvador Dali

Leon Auguste Perrey

• Venus, twisting her hair in triumph,
• occurs in the water bursting laughter
• that is light and joy of the wretched being, into the sea
• then the real hair, and the world
• recovers its initial grace, and the sea
• trembles and sings great pleasure.
• For the fronts due weight,
• arms outstretched, protruding breasts, lips
• suddenly breaking into song, the chorus
• goddess goes on light aircraft,
• curling seas with hair,
• lights and laughter that make them tremble [...],

Salvador Rueda





Alma_Tadema


Alexandra Nedzvetckaya


Albert Laurens

Adolphe
LaLyre


Adolphe LaBLyre


British •
my life I want to fall in death,
as the high water jet
beautiful morning lying in the water;
wavy, bright , sensual, cheerful,
diluted with everybody in it, in grace
crisp and happy.


Water Water, Juan Ramón Jiménez






Pierre-Auguste Renoir



Daniel Vasquez Diaz


Adolphe_Bouguereau

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Petroleum Jelly To Masterbate

Help me to forget, because I can not ignore.

For days he did not speak the issue ... I tried to avoid in every way but as if it were back pain need to talk about it and relieve the pain.

I'm much better. I know what I want and how to get it. Step by step I will overcome ... but that does not mean you do not miss and that hurts me not (either as a friend). And the worst of being lesbian or bisexual is that when you break up with your girlfriend also break with your best friend. Because she was everything, and I have friends ... but none can fill the same way and that makes me incomplete.

I feel like dust in the wind. I feel that this was not real and there is nothing left. I understand we need a while but is that just hit (lie, have already spent 4 months) is to lose all your happiness. I can not remember the last time we talked, because there are days ... have become two to three weeks and do not know if we'll talk it is still missing. I would hate it, because if you do not need to hate her and I feel like I feel now.

is because around me I makes it easy. Talk, comments, love, relationships. They have, I do not. And instead of hurting the failure to take, what hurts me is that I had and it's over.

Sometimes I feel I can no more ... I'm dying without it. And others swear that I have forgotten. Everything goes from one extreme to another and know I can not do anything but wait to meet another person to fill that void ... that did not substitute, because nobody can be in the place of another person but to make me forget all this, because unfortunately not ignore-LA.






has not been easy to accept that you no longer come back,
how it hurts to remember that you're gone.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

It Looks Like A Kaleidoscope Around My Eyes

GLEE - Gay

weather was and that he wanted to talk about my addiction ... of course I speak of GLEE! American Series I totally love it. And if you've never seen it "are you waiting for? Is a musical unlike anything that had gone before. First because it is the only one that is cast to gays, lesbians, fat and disabled. All those factors are of marginalization in society. And second, because there is a remarkable roll-gay! Hahahaha

And here is where Santana and Brittany & Kurt & Blaine. They are sooo adorable

*____* I love both pairs.



Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Indian With Big Breast

Sonora, clean, transparent, FUNDS: the fountain in the art

Karl
Virsaviya Bryullov
.
Sonora, clean, transparent, FUNDS,
are born of ancient forest, oh sacred source! In your bank

the bird sings sweetly in love and complaint. Ora
blue flag, now in pink
that surround the stream of your current and settle
gently swaying
gallant bee and butterfly. Well
know you love by your signals,
glory of the meadows painted, spell
pastors and shepherds.
But what to me are your joys?
What do your clear and smooth springs,
if you just have to take my tears? José Joaquín Pesado





Thomas Moran



Albert Fourie
August

source not shut up, shut up ...

not laughing, jumping
,
talking ...
And nobody knew what he was saying.
Clara, joyful, polyphonic, Solomon columella


silence pierced the west
and garrulous, the
tiptoe to see the dying sun.
not shut up the source.
not shut up ...
As
vein of the night, his auger, silver
cold

shrugged and stretched ...
Subía,
down, chatted

... And nobody knew what he was saying.
When the dawn again ...

Manuel Machado




Ferdinand Keller


Francesco Albani


Frederic Leighton


Paul Rubens


Jacques Van Bree

Alma-Tadema



Henry Margetson


William_de Leftwich

Monday, March 14, 2011

Can You Use Scooter Wheels For Ripsticks

changes

time changes. Time not to hide, to live, to be oneself. Time give a radical change in this blog. 3 years ago I opened this (June 2009) with a single plan. Power vent in a private place, hiding my identity. And all for what? For fear of being rejected for being gay / bisexual. So much has happened since then ... I remember the beginning, how weak I was, how lonely I felt and how difficult it was my life. I have decided to finally make this public. Nothing remains of the girl was frightened coward. So I do not see the need to continue hiding from something that is not no sin, no defect or disease. OF-LOVE.

I make these changes because now I'm writing more than ever, and I took it more as a personal journal just because of my sexual orientation.

Hello, my name is Jenny and I am a project person. Photography student. And I hope someday advertising. Addicted to the series. Book lover. (A writer times) and LOVE is my oxygen. I also love people and my love knows no differences. Bisexual, lesbian prone, but the same beats than anyone else. Vivo. Sorry. Respiro. I complain. Kiss. Cry. Dream. I cry. He smiled. I'm in love. Way to the back of everyone and happy times. Silly and ridiculous most of the time.

This is my story. Now I am as you see.



And speaking of being yourself,
listen to the lyrics of this song because it talks about just that.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Love Sayings For Picnik

time But I'm a Cheerleader

Never judge a movie for the plot or the cover.

The L Word ends another day which I left a pretty big existential void. I will talk about this later ... The fact is that I lost my dose of homosexuality and now I try to fill that void with movies. If you know any other recommended series! Today I decided to But I'm a Cheerleader. had already heard of it but did not know it was about.

cheerleader Megan Bloomfield is in his school, has friends girlfriend cheerleaders and football team captain. It's vegetarian, does not like kisses and hugs her boyfriend when her friends can. One day her friends, her boyfriend and his parents have a trap sent to a camp where cure homosexuality. Megan has to pass several tests, including the first one is to realize that she is a lesbian.


I thought it was a plot so much fun that I have decided to see it:) Be not deceived, but seem like fun (it is) ends up telling a beautiful story that develops between two girls and we gives a message loud and clear: We're like us and nothing can change that.

The place was ridiculous. "The good way" was called. Teaching men to be men and women to be women. Family therapy, examples of heterosexuality, including lessons on how to "do it." Finally, do not know if this is really simple comedy or there are places like that but if they do I think the biggest nonsense in the world. Homosexuality is not something that can change, homosexuality does not exist. It is a feeling and I call it love.

certainly surprised me. Entertaining and starts going after hooking. The first kiss of the two girls is amazing. Maybe because it reminds me a lot to me. Fears. The acceptance. At the end of the struggle of self against society.

is not an awesome movie, but I recommend it.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Difference Between Velvet And Chenille



September 11 Twin Towers, January 11 earthquake in Haiti, March 11 Madrid bombing, March 11 Earthquake in Japan ... and tsunami. Too

chance .... And I do not believe in coincidences. I am sure the earth is complaining in any way for the damage they do. But people are so selfish that they only think about themselves. And sometimes I am too. But I'm not going to be. Today I want to make my words here to support all people who have lost others who are lost and others will be. I can not imagine having to follow my life lost my house or my loved ones. And having survived something. Today many people must have the strength to do it and I want to join them. Sorry

from the depths of my soul. And not by the people itself, but also by the amount of world that has been destroyed. Because it will take years to repair the damage as well, and this time it has touched us but ... Who says we will not be the next? First

in 2012 the world ends and right now this happens. Well, you want to tell you, I have fear. Nobody wants to believe in the end, but I'm sure in the hearts of all people without exception of one lies a little scary. And I'm near the beach. This means that if a tsunami is the first that span me.

I have 19 years. I have not experienced love. I have not had children and got married. I have traveled to where I want. I have not finished my studies. I still have many things to do and I do not believe that I will not reach them.

A lot of this will seem silly. But do not just speak of fear that the world ends, I also speak of fear in this society. Each day that everything is worse. World ... if I want a little fix things, and do not destroy it until a few years, give me some more time ...

Well, for not completing a so depressing, yesterday I did a salute to the camera. So you see how silly I am: p

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Charlotte Nc Gay Sauna

The world and I live for love but he does not live for my

Do you know? I'm not wrong, but I'm not well. I was viewing photos on tumblr and one in particular caught my attention: a summer love. Unfortunately I have not had any. As I have not had a teenage love. Feel, yeah, I have felt. But it was never mine. Neither the 14 or 15 or at 16 or 17. It is not something I seem pathetic, but sad ... sad that my first kiss was at 18 years, and my longest relationship has been through of a computer screen. Is that I do not deserve it? I believe in love more than anything else. I live for love. It's my fucking oxygen! But love never live for me ... and I'm very tired. Tired of waiting for something that never comes, something that I see as impossible. Running out to have hope or illusion, I will not let dream more. I am of those who live by love, and that if they do not die. When I'm in love I am the happiest person in the world, but when I'm not the world I come. I feel incomplete. Already

I do not care if a man or a woman. I just want love. I'm always advocating love but is there really? Because even I have not had the pleasure of meeting in full.

it is not waking up next to somebody, kiss me till I hurt your lips, feel his weight on top of me naked, I come home and find me fired, I give flowers or send me an Message goodnight. See a movie in my room and we can not finish it, I dry the tears and tell me now, these beautiful ... me plenty of pictures and post them on my cork, to sing and when we hear our song went crazy ...

are so many things I do not know about this feeling and so many long for, the day arrives that does not begin to live first.



I love you, my love.

For those unable to listen: HERE

Miu Miu Bow Satchel Bag 2010

FRIENDS, I'M GOING / FRIENDS, I'M GOING

Well, folks, I'm leaving.
I'm going for a fairly long time.
As I always say: Do not try to get me, because I'm not going to find.
I have not had time to do something to make it a post. But I leave this little drawing I made long ago, (1997) I was looking for a picture to put here, and I liked this because I wrote under the picture:
"man on the trail of a path that will travel in the future" . And I think it's a good way to think, "Well, I do not care about the future. The future is now, because if I do things well today, everything will be fine in the future, it is easy to say but sometimes is not easy to achieve, I know, sometimes I have failed in the attempt. But keep trying. It is a matter that I have pending.
not miss me ... Bah, do not think I have done sufficient proof, as you miss me.
See you in the future, today. I leave
SPLHCB header because I believe that was what I liked to do last year.

Well, folks, I'm leaving.
Fairly'm going for a long time.
As I always say: Do Not seek, Because You Will Not find me.
I Have Not Had Time to Do Something to make it a post. But I leave this little drawing I did long ago, (1997) I Was looking for a picture to put here, and I liked it under the picture Because I wrote:
"man on the trail of a path that will travel in the future" , and I think it's a good way to think, " I do not care about the future. The future is now, because if I do things well today, everything will be fine in the future" (easy to say but sometimes not is easy to achieve, I know, sometimes I have failed in the attempt. But we must keep trying. It's a subject that I have pending.
Do not miss me... Bah, I do not think I have done sufficient merit, that you miss me.
See you in the future, today.
I leave the header S.P.L.H.C.B. because I think it was the header that I enjoyed more, to do last year.

He visto que algunos amigos se han preocupado por mi anuncio. No se preocupen, por favor, no voy a la carcel, ni me inner me out facial wrinkles, or something. JA JA
I'm going to a wedding, very far, very happy for me. And, as I will be away from home, will rest a few days there. When I return, I tell them.

I've seen some friends Have worried about my ad. Do Not worry, please, Do not go to jail, internal or me to get me out facial wrinkles, or Something Like That. JA JA
I'm going to a wedding, very far, very happy for me. And, as I will be away from home, will rest a Few Days There. When I return, I'll tell you.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Pickachu Costume Ideas

Happy Women's Day

Today is International Women CONGRATULATIONS!

last day before yesterday I saw the Disney movie, tangled. And I have to say I was very surprised, very much. So much has happened to my second favorite disney movies! (Always first Tarzan hahahaha) entangled, has it all! is hilarious, exciting, mature but with touches children ... and above all, PRE-CIO-SA.



and how I liked it so much, I made a video of me with the soundtrack, which also s includes scenes of the film.

My message is that all we have to feel princesses for a day. This is me. Crazy and always laughing, my way to be princess. ALWAYS.

And what is yours? :)



PS: The sound stops almost at the end of video, I tried to fix it but you can not ¬ ¬ sorry!

Monday, March 7, 2011

Is Western Southern A Scam

Gonzalo Rojas, mystical and sensual. We are with you. Kacper


• Dear friends, this time I have my thoughts on a Chilean writer, one of my great admiration, the poet Gonzalo Rojas.
• A few days ago has been hit by the disease, stroke now keeps in his bed surrounded by family and loved ones that will energize positive and caring.
• Has 93 years and one of the large, painted the walls of his home after many gray, green and blue as the eyes of his wife, Hilda May, had one eye of each color.
• The mystical poetry and lustful at par, as he describes himself, is that mixture that shakes the cobwebs from the libraries. One of the most widely read poets in the world.
• When asked about God, said:
• And God Rojas. Do you believe in God?
• "I believe in my God and I speak slowly.
• No loud talking with him.
• In my work an average game mystic. When people read my poems of love, he says, how it will be mystical, this man, almost libertine!
• Well, mystical lustful, if you want.
• Also, I think the spell of love and even sex is sacred.
• No one can go around saying that this is a desecration, desecration of what! To me the blame does not work and I have no fault that I do not work. Is sin? Less. "
• From here, go all our energies and most sincere hugs to Gonzalo Rojas.



• Salvation
I fell for you when you cried your boyfriend, crushed by the death, and were like the star that lit the world terror.
Oh how I regret having lost that night under the trees, while the sea sounded through the fog and you were electrical and weeping under the storm, oh how I regret having made your face, your voice and your fingers, of not having excited, for not having taken and possessed, oh how I regret not having kissed.
More than your blue eyes, your skin more cinnamon, more enriched your voice to call the dead, more than the ominous glow of your soul is incarnate in my being, like animal that eats my back with his teeth. I would
Easy been biting among the flowers as the farmers, give a kiss on the neck, ears, and get my spot in the depths of your wound.
But I was fine, and what became an obsession would have been just a torn dress, legs tired from running and running to the instant frenzy, and the sweat of a young woman and a young, free from death. Oh
endless hole, where it exits and enters the endless sea Oh I wish terrible smell your smell makes lewd and mournful girl behind the dresses of all women.
Why was not fierce, do not you saved from the muddy and perverse they exhale the dead? Why do not you like a man that impregnates dark and stormy night? • Gonzalo Rojas



















• All paintings are the artist Serhiy Reznichenko .